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  • 11:16 AM


Dec. 27th, 2007

  • 12:24 PM

you know, i thought it was promising. but than i realized even in your crazy mixed up world, youre just like all the rest.

Today is a beautiful day outside. Just by looking at the sky today you wouldn't think that 2 days ago we had a HUGE storm and couldn't do anything. I finished some Christmas presents last night. I'm working on this beautiful piece for my sister. I think she's really going to like it, I really have to work on it tonight.

I'm a little heart broken right now, but I will talk about that more later, I think. I'm starting not to like not to go into work now. And the day I said that I started not going to work is the day I start to find a new job. So I think I'm going to do it soon. They are doing all kinds of crazy stuff at work and I don't know if I can handle it. Or want to handle it.

I can't wait to get paid on Friday. I hate being broke. I'm totally broke. 0.73 cents in my checking account. Too close to comfort right now.

Just want to let you know, I flipped my mattress last night. . . I had the best night sleep in a long time. What a wonder flipping a mattress can do.

I thought I was going to have a visitor today . . . not the case. He was having lunch with his team. Lame. I should really shower. I mean it is 12 and I have nothing else to do. Id really like to paint, but if I start I'm not going to want to stop. Again lame. I wish I had more time.

So I've decided that I'm going to paint a big picture of Quack from "Peep and the Big Wide World" and write a quote underneath it with my silver pen, something like, "water is such a wonderful thing, life would be so dry without it." Or something of the sort. I finally finished my painting for Brian. I'm delivering it to him today at work.

Anyway, I should jump in the shower.

Ps. I'm a dumb dumb. I woke up at 8 am and Brooke goes to me, "did you turn the oven off last night?" . . . . No, I didn't. It ran from 1 am until 8 am. Self cleaning, I'd like to say.

Dear you,

I'm done.

Love always,


So last night before going to sleep, must have been around 3:30 AM I looked over at Brooke (who spent the night) and said, "It looks like its snow." Neither one of us watches the news, only because it depresses us, and really never has any time. We wake up around 11:30 and I look outside and what is it doing, snowing. I called it. It might be the fact that it's winter. And End of Nov. But I still called it. We haven't had any snow yet this year, and I called it. I think it might be time to retire the flip flops. I don't want to. But yesterday I froze all day at work. I had two blankets on me and I was wrapped up to the max. And it almost might be the fact I sit right underneath the air conditioner. I'm not sure. It might be the latter of the situation.

I should totally get motivated. I have to go to Hannaford so that I can get some deodorant and some possible lunch. Since when I was leaving for work yesterday noticed that I was running out. I thought I had a second thing a deodorant, but apparently I do not. Stuff just keeps coming up missing at my house. I think I just find really shitty places to put things and forget where I put them. My nail file (the one I spent like $20 on.) And my second thing of deodorant, I think I might have lost the deodorant though. Ha-ha. I don't know how one loses anything in my apartment the size of a shoe-box, but I do.

I made the best dinner last night. I bought these pasta shells with cheese already in them, in the freezer section and placed them in a cake pan with Onion and Garlic Pasta sauce from the old Wally-mart and cooked them for a half hour. They were probably the most fantastic thing I have eaten in a very long time. I made some cornbread too, but I didn't have any last night. I think I'm going to have some tonight, heat it up and put some butter on it. Yummy, I do love the cornbread.

The snow is coming down heavier now. We have about an inch now. Gosh, I hate the snow. Oh, I want to let you know . . . every time you're online, I get excited. I keep hoping that you'll send me a message. Not the case. I talked with Mikey Mayhem last night. I love that old fool. He's pretty fantastic. It would be really nice if he could come out and visit. We could go to the coast and eat lobsters and get drunk with some lobstermen. Ha-ha

I wrote a blog last night that is just for my preferred readers, if you're wondering. . . I've been hurt by someone who I thought I mattered to. But really, I guess I don't. Insert from my blog last night:

I've come to realization that when you do something nice for someone, and you care about someone with your whole heart and soul, you shouldn't. When you care for someone so much that you can't breathe when something bad might happen to them. You care about them so much that not just your heart hurts, but your body hurts, and you don't know what you're doing. . . you have no direction, have no other thought other than about them, you shouldn't. Take yourself away from that situation, because they don't really appreciate that. They don't appreciate you.

Heart broken. <3

Anyway, I have to get ready for work, showered and Hannaford bound I am. I'll write more tomorrow, I'm sure. Yay. One more day after today and than I'm off for the next 4 days.
And pete from work is giving me a iMac. Which I'm kind of excited for. I've never owned a Mac. He says I'll like it. Exciting.

I'm kind of a big deal

  • Nov. 19th, 2007 at 11:50 AM

So this morning I wake up thinking it's a half hour later than it actually was. 11:45 instead of actually being 11:15. This is fine. I got up a half hour earlier. So my friend Brooke stayed the night and we talked and laughed and had a good time. She tried to teach me gibberish. I'm not very good at it., I might add. "A" for effort she said.

Again, I wake up and I move the curtain, well actual sheet that I have hanging has a curtain away so I can see the sun outside, and the leaves that clutter my deck. (This by the way is bigger than my whole apartment.) And I sit down on my bed with Brookie and we have a cigarette and there is a man at the edge of the house in a white long sleeved shirt and khaki pants, with a black camera hanging from his neck; peaking around the corner. He stands out fully so I can see him, and picks his camera up and takes several photos facing my apartment. Just want you to know, I'm a legend. I have my own paparazzi. Yes, they'll be selling for a pretty penny. And you'll see them in US weekly. Watch out for that. I didn't even have to sign a record deal with Joe Simpson to have this happen. Ha-ha. Brookie is on the phone, I'm sitting at the computer typing this up. She doesn't understand my importance as of yet. She'll learn. (I'm an asshole.)

So, I'm sitting here again listening to Christmas music again. I love Christmas music. I can't wait to take out my Christmas tree.

Yesterday was "PJ" day at work, I felt like a bum all day. I did love it around 10 PM though. When I was cuddled up in my work chair with my blanket, all comfy; I did want to roll right into my bed at that point though. Today I can't do that. Tonight is going to be jeans and a t-shirt. Which I'm kind of excited for. Since I haven't worn pants in like 24 hrs, or more. Ha-ha. Fantast.

Soon, I really have to start painting again. I really do. I have to get that painting done. I'm going to dedicate a night this week. I just don't know what day yet. (Echo Motivation. . . Motivationnnnnnnnnnnnn where are you?) I think I might even just give it to them instead of collecting on it since I took so long. I know I put a lot of work into it, but I promised it in Oct. and it's almost Nov. And I started in July on this painting. Uhh . . . time has flown by.

Brookie is talking about marriage. Ahhhhhhhhhhh! (She's kidding, but…Ahhhhhhhhhhh) Scare me. Sad though, I don't think I'll get married. I don't think that anyone would want to marry me. If I was a man I wouldn't want to marry me. I mean, being sexy and beautiful doesn't make up a marriage. I mean, it can if you're in Hollywood. . . Wait a minute I'm a big deal. Someone's going to marry me. Since I'm a Debbie Downer right now, I'm going to stop this. Ha-ha.

Anyway, I have to go bring Brookie home so that she can get some money and go put some gas in her car. Than I'm coming back to clean up this little hole of an apartment and take a shower.

PS. I thought of my wedding song – "Easy" Faith No More. I will leave you some lyrics form the song. Ha-ha.

Know it sounds funny but I just cant stand the pain
Girl Im leaving you tomorrow
Seems to me girl you know Ive done all I can
You see I begged, stole and I borrowed
Thats why Im easy
Im easy like sunday morning
Thats why Im easy
Im easy like sunday morning
I wanna be high
Soo high
I wanna be free to know the things I do are right
I wanna be free
Just me
Oh baby
Thats why Im easy
Im easy like sunday morning
Thats why Im easy
Im easy like sunday morning

Todays lesson is abbrevs.

  • Nov. 18th, 2007 at 9:34 AM

Today I thought I would help you wonderful people out. I tend to abbreviate a lot, expecially when I shouldn't on words. So I thought I would give you the meanings of abbreviations so that you won't be mixed up when we have a conversation. Because, I will use abbreviations,and I will expect you to understand me. So, do your research now.

Actsh - Actually
Apprecsh - Appreciate
Attract - Attracted; Attractive
Const - Constantly
Dece - Decent
Ev - Ever
Fav - Favorite
Fantast - Fantastic
Fuuutch - Future
Heart - Love. (now this isn't a abbreviation, but I say instead of love. a lot.)
Obnox -- Obnoxious
Pump - Pumpkin (Ps. I use this const when friends call.)
Proff - Profile
Sms - text message
Redick - Rediculous
Whatev - Whatever.

Now this is just is a small list of abbrevs. Learn them. Heart them. Use them.

Now, a regular blog. I'm tired. I just got up. Its a 11:58 AM. And I should have gotten up at 12:30. I talked to Liser on the phone until like 3:30. She met her future husband last night. I'm so happy about that. Hopefully he'll accept. haha.

Today is PJ day at work. And really I do not own a pair of PJs. I mean, I have sweatpants. Not so attractive sweatpants. And I borrowed some PJs from a friend so that I could wear them to work, but Um...yeah. they are a little tight on the backside, and I know I have a nice ass, but I'm not going to show it off at work in a pair of PJs. Not so attractive. Sweatpants it is.

I really should get my ass in gear and get in the shower. But I'm kind of okay just sitting here in panties at my computer desk typing up this blog. I dont feel like waking up just yet. I would love a HUGE coffee right now. Mmm, hazelnut.

I attempted to paint last night. I bought some cheap watercolors and pulled out my watercolor paper and tried to paint. They are horrible. So i'm a little disappointed in it. Nothing good came from it. So, yeah. not so good. I should finish that commision. I'm almost done. If I dedicate a night to it this week, I would be finished.

Finally, I talked to Brookit today. First time this weekend. Thats the longest amount of time we have gone without talking since i met the girl. It was a long time. She spent the whole weekend pretty much in Newport. I spend the entire weekend in my apartment, pretty much. I talked to a few people on the phone, and I went to crystals house last night and came back with so much groceries. haha. It looks like I went grocery shopping. But no. Its just stuff crystal didn't want. Yummy stuff. Like Digorinos Pasta salads. Yummm. And GREEN TEA mix! Fantast. I love green tea. I made a huge thing of it last night. And because I dont liek the cups I do have. I've been drinking my green tea out of wine glasses. I'm classy. Learn it.

Ps. when you look up in the sky tonight. Look for Orions belt and the big dipper and little dipper. Appreciate them.

Good morning beautiful

  • Nov. 17th, 2007 at 10:57 AM

Why am I up? Oh, because I got a call, and I'm awake. Yay. Blah. No beach today. Lisa decided to work. Which is not a big deal, I could do some artsy fartsy stuff I imagine. I dont have anything planned out. Nor anything I really want to do right now for artsy fartsy stuff. However, I am glad to get up and see that it is sunny out and the ground has dried from the rain. Oh and its not snowing!! Which is a plus in my book.

So yesterday was a lame day. I did nothing. Nothing all day. I spend the day home all day. I did go out for a matter of 5 minutes to get cigarettes and a soda, only to come back home and play on the computer some more. I think I must have changed my layout on my myspace like 10 different times. Real productive. I know, thanks!!

ps. I'm in love with the new myspace IM. I don't really know why. I dont speak with people I know on it. but I think its fantastic. I kind of wish I had it on my phone as a instant messenger. Wow.

Later on today I have to go see Crystal at her job, and pick up a car seat and drive it back to her house. Which is possibly a good idea for me to leave anyway i have to go put gas in my car.

So, you know what's lame? I thought it was cool a while ago when I signed up on craigslist for a personal thing to set up my email from my outlook to send to my phone as a text message everytime I got a email. So when I start to think i have friends. I actually have emails. Spam emails at that. Not even from friends. I'm alone. So very alone. Haha.

"Allll I want for chirstmas is youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu" Just so you can imagine this, I'm sitting at my desk tapping my feet and swaying left to right typing this up. In panties and a fleece, hair a mess (almost train wreck), make up smudged (total train wreck) typing up this blog listening to christmas music bouncing around. It is good to be me.

Well, I can't think of anything else to write about. I'm sure I'll think of something later. And I'll write you more about my life, as it comes. Kind of like a news update. even with the music. dun.dundundundun dundundun dunnnnn. Lori update. Blah.

So glad its friday. Yay.

  • Nov. 16th, 2007 at 1:08 PM

Serious question. . . is it too early to start decorating for Christmas?!?! I really want to right now. I know the leaves haven't even totally fallen off the trees yet. But I want to take out my Christmas tree, and I want to be merry and happy. Its kind of cold enough, and I want to do fun christmasy stuff. I can't wait for after Thanksgiving so peoples Christmas lights are up!! I want to go drive around and look at all the Christmas lights.

Life partner came over last night, and we just hung out. drank some beer and chit-chatted. Which was nice. text brookie a few times, she is hanging out with her friend last night, so. . . yeah. Life partner left around 4:30.

Yesterday I made a new playlist. I was watching TV and one of those infomercials were on about music collections and stuff. Well this one was Buzz Ballads which is pretty neat, Its all the stuff I remember listening to when I was younger. So I thought about making a playlist with all of those songs. All early to late 90's alternative. Well I've made it. And I'm already sick of it. It's a good thing I made a playlist instead buying the two disc set. Haha. But there are some sweet songs on it that like "Freshmen," The Verve Pipe. or "Linger," The Cranberries. Fantastic. haha. I love it.

I wonder what liser is doing today. I think shes working but I dont know how late. I think I'd like to see her, since I hardly ever do. She mentioned something about going to the Popham tomorrow possibly. If its not raining, I think that would be fantastic. Just to go walk the beach. Maybe we could find new crab families. haha.

Oh, and something I haven't addressed as of yet, WHO put "You're so beautiful . . . . wow!!!" on my fridge? Not that I mind -- I love it actually. And keep it up. ;) But it would be nice to put a face to the compliment. But I'm going to start thinking it came from someone that it didn't and than I'm going to look like a fool when I say something. ;)

I just got up to get another cigarette and sat down, Guess what. . . its snowing!! (the only thing I hate about winter!!)

Anyone up for anything this weekend?

procrastination at its best.

  • Nov. 15th, 2007 at 1:49 PM

I'm glad today is Friday....well technically thursday for all of you folks that do not live in my world. ;) But its friday to me. And I will have the next two days off. Yesterday was a rough day at work. I went to work after spending an awesome evening and morning with the most amazing person. But, this person gets up super early. Which I admire about them, but It kills me, Haha. I'm a night owl. Always kind of have been.

Anyway, so last night after work -- with a little fight over if I should go to bed or not, I decided against it, and went to Brookies house where I hung out with Heterosexual Life partner without Benefits, Brookie and Anthony. We had a good time, drank some beers and hung out. Talked about all kinds of crazy things. Got some video on my phone. Which i love doing, and Brookie hates, Haha. Sorry brooke. haha. Ill have to post some of my videos sometime. I'm an asshole. I think Ive stated that in everyone of the blogs ive writen lately. I so should be getting ready right now for work. I get so easily distracted. I'm researching my blog right now. ;)

So my lifepartner showed me some things last night that i will have to show someone next time i'm in the sack, haha. Its hot. Except for the fact that I couldn't hear out of my right ear for like 10 minutes. That, I will leave out. AND brookie is going to be calling me in like 5 minutes expeciting me to be to be ready. and will say "Puuuuuump, why arent you ready?" haha.

I can hear it already.